I Love No One but...

My heart is hurting... 

Even I’m the one 

who torn your heart apart, 

I’m also wounding... 

These hands 

are already glistened by blood, 

far before you know me...

No, 

I never lie about my feeling. 

But the facts are 

how fast my heart changing, 

how I don’t like my heart being abused 

to do something that is not me...

You have no mistakes, really... 

One mistake that you only did is

loves me

when you shouldn’t...

I’m a loving person, 

not a loved one... 

I like being loved, 

but that’s not mean I will accept any feeling easily... 

It’s because

I admire someone who could make me loving him, 

just him...

Yes, 

I don’t have any courage to even say anything to you,

even a "thank you"...

A Song I want "YOU" to Sing to Me ♫

This song is so beautiful I could cry...

I wish, someday the one who will be my husband will propose me with this song ♥

LION HEART by SMAP

[Translation]

You have always been my medicine box,

Whenever I feel sick, you are the cure…

Laughing beside me, look at that smile

And when you cry, tears really do fall…

This love is such an ordinary love,

So why do I feel this way?

I will protect you; I was born for this reason…

You might not believe it but I will always be by your side…

When you sleep and I see your face, in my chest beats a lion’s heart…

And someday if we have a child,

I will tell our child, “You’re the person I love second-most in the world.

And sooner or later, you will also meet a special person,

Just like how I meet your mother.”

You suffered through many fake loves and lies in your past,

But…

Everything you lost

I will give everything, everything back to you…

Because your warmth has given me love…

This never changing morning beats within your tiny angel’s heart…

You suffered through many fake loves and lies in your past,

But…

Everything you lost

I will give everything, everything back to you…

Because your warmth has given me love…

I will protect you; I was born for this reason…

You might not believe it but I will always be by your side…

When you sleep and I see your face, in my chest beats a lion’s heart…

L'Arc~en~Ciel in Indonesia?!!!

Check this site and SHOUT you Cielers!!!!

http://www.larc-en-ciel.com/wt2012/index.html

I'm overly excited these days ƪ(ˆ▽ˆ)ʃ

The euphoria of this world tour is seriously drive me crazy!!!

 I've waited this time since middle school,

and this is God's answer!!! ♥♥♥ 

I actually want to attach my L'Arc~en~Ciel collection

which unfortunately are neatly packed in my house ƪ(‾ε‾“)ʃ 

And for God's sake

after so much of obstacles

I managed to buy the tickets (which I haven't print yet)!!!!

HOORRAAAAAYYY!!! ヘ(^_^ヘ) (ノ^_^)ノ 

I planned to watch them with my sister (´⌣`ʃƪ)

I'M REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS CONCERT!!! \(≧◡≦)/

L'Arc~en~Ciel World Tour 2012!!!

Go Go SSing! ♥♥♥

Wish "YUU" a Happy Birthday ♥

葵さん、お誕生日 おめでとうございます!!! ♥♥♥

Yes, this is your 33th birthday today!!! ヘ(^_^ヘ) (ノ^_^)ノ

Our beloved "SUPER STAR" ★★★ Shiroyama Yuu ♥♥♥

Although I can't directly write or say anything to you,

but still

I always wishing for your happiness (ɔ ˘⌣˘)~♡

I believe that the almighty "HERESY" and "GAZEROCKer" all over the world

wishing for the same thing...

Dear 葵さん、

I know that I'm no body for you,

for the GazettE...

But before today is ending,

I just want you to know how much

I LOVE YOU

in a real way,

as a woman...

Maybe this is just another love since

I LOVE the GazettE as ONE ♥♥♥

So once again,

  お誕生日 おめでとうございます!!! ♥♥♥

LOVE in my Eyes

Love 

is a word that contains meanings...

It could gives you a

smile, 

brings you some 

tears, 

born you many 

happiness 

and offer you so much 

pain...

It could embrace you in its 

warmth

but also could throw you in its 

cold...

Once you know it, 

it will silently invite you 

into your highest fantasy 

but

will calmly drag you 

under your deepest misery...

Yes,

it named 

love...

And before you know it, 

a word that worshiped by many people, 

that simple lie 

and greatest truth will linger on your every hearts, 

consuming your emotions, 

suck your dignity 

and finish you with nothing 

but a word that named 

“Bye”...

One Day that will Come

Remembering those hundreds smiles,
thinking those thousands tears,
adoring those millions laughs,
wrapping off those billion pains…


I believe someday,
these kinds of little things
that will remind us
about how naïve we were,
about how childish we acted,
about how stupid we joked,
about how we were one…

 

 

 

The time is not come yet though…
But those words will silently creeping into our sleep,
embrace under the moonlights…

No,
I don’t want to say
“GOOD BYE…”

Note and Cup of Tears

I may love the wrong person, 

cry for the wrong reason...
But,

this pain is going on and on...

There’s nothing I could do but run 

far away from this full of non sense feeling...


Dear you over there,

this love is not a lie...
It’s just a fragile words that laying

upon a layer of uncertainty...
Frail…


When you will realize this cry?
Agony under my pale skin,

forced out from my wounded heart...
Still waiting for your ear hears this faint whisper...
Weak breathe break eventually...



One soul decided to stop from its long wander...

A Fear under the Pain

A creepy voice lingers on my head,
paint a deep wound in it
and suck its life out.

Yes...
I live in my past,
getting confuse by the present,
and afraid of the future...

And how hard I tried,

that deep wound,

would never healed...