Silent Whisper (1)

そう…悲しみが これ以上聞こえぬように

そっと耳を塞ぐように

壊れてしまわないように

So... that you can't hear anymore sadness

So that you can softly turn a deaf ear to it

So that it won't break you

-UNTITLED by the GazettE-

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I'm afraid of that pain 

from holding back my tears...

So I try to stay away from it...

Yes I’m running away from that pain...

I closed my eyes, 

my ears, 

and my heart

tightly; so they won’t suffering 

by lies...

But more I try to run

more lies embrace me, 

more lies slip from my lips...

A Story

Not every love stories have a happy ending...

And not all of sad pieces must ending in sorrow...

When our story is being unclasped by God,

we know we have no right to beg

for more or less...

We have to keep walking through it

with faith on God’s wise decision...

God’s absolute scenario...

 I met you,

that must be one of God’s plans for me...

I love you,

that must be destiny that God’s arrange for me,

or maybe us...

The distance,

that must be the God’s way

to considering my attempt

to reach your trails of life...

This almost impossible love

scratching my skin slowly,

until pain changed by numb,

until my day and night crumbled into a nothingness...

But never change my feeling for you...

My love will forever there

for you

as my prayers fly into the air...

Something You won't Ever Understand

I know I’ll never be a good girl...

I realize how much I hurt people around me...

I understand it yet I refuse to change myself...

I’m pathetic?

You’re probably right...

Every single pain that I received

made me a horrible person

and you won’t understand what is like...

I’m not the only one who feels this kind of feeling?

No, I’m not

and I’m aware of that...

This insecure feeling

is not only mine...