It’s been
months yet
I feel that nothing changes.
Something inside me still struggling
with something
that I’m afraid isn’t there.
I start
thinking that I
become smaller that I used to be.
This heart is withering.
I unconsciously
started to avoid people again;
afraid that world will hurt me again;
afraid
that I have to endure pains again.
This insecurity
is killing me every day.
But I don’t know why I should feel like this.
I love
my family, my friends.
It feels
like my heart
is about to bursting.
There are too much unknown emotions
that fill
my chest.
It hurts.
Why do I feel
like people starts
walk away from me?
When did I become
this
pathetic?
