Silent Whisper (2)

Here in the shadows
I am pursued
Until the ends of the earth
Embraced

- The Cape of Storm by HYDE-

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I’m lost...
My feet are shaking,
filled with
uncertainty before me...


Each step get heavier,
each breath get weaker...




Half lidded eyes
force me to stop; 

to die... 

Voice inside my head
wailing desperately,
whispering plea; 
humming the pain... 

Trembled hands 
stretched themselves
into the
darkness, 

grab nothing 
but
silent dream... 





My vision 
rambled into a blurry 
reflection of myself...

Tears spilled,
wash the wounded heart... 



But,
the trace will be
a memory

as I start to face the world
for the thousands times...

Flowers (花)

Do you know

that flowers get more beautiful 

when they’re decaying?

Their beautiful colors get rotten, 

their pleasant scent fading, 

yet their beautiful feature stay along 

before they turn into ashes...

I think those flowers 

somehow 

resemble the deceased musician...

Beautiful 

when they’re meeting their death...

Flowers that have their souls linger

on people hearts 

and slowly vanished 

by other people around those 

who love those deceased flowers...

Their romance contaminated 

by black spots, 

ruined their very reason to bloom...

Ironic fact that covered by temptation; 

degrading euphoria...

Fated by Ayumi Hamasaki

運命に君は信じてる
Do you believe in fate
それまでも何もかも全て
A momentary encounter
変えて行ってしまうような
That changes everything in your life
一瞬の出会い
Before that?

目があって瞬間に気づく
We notice it the moment our eyes meet someone's
触れ合って確信にかわる
We come to feel it sure in contacting with him or her
だけどそこで人は一度
But then once
足が竦む
We feel weak in the knees

頬を打つ風がリアル さを伝えてる
The wind strokes my cheeks and makes me feel real
これは幻なんかじゃないんだって そっと囁く
Whispering softly that this is not an illusion at all

届かない声だと思ってた
I've been thinking that I couldn't reach your voice
敵わない夢だと思ってた
I've been thinking that this dream wouldn't come true
今僕の目の前にいるのは
But the person before my eyes is
願うの誰でもない君
You see? No one else but you

この道にどこへ繋がって
Where does this road lead to
どんな風に続いているのが
And how does it continue?
想像したって見当なんて
Even if I imagine them
付く訳もなく
It's of course that I have no clue

強くありたいと思う程に 心は思う
I feel the more I wish to be strong
反比例するように弱くなって行く 気がして
The weaker my heart becomes in inverse proportion

泣きながら君の名を叫んだ
I shouted your name in tears
夢なら覚めないでと願った
I wished I wouldn't wake up, if it were a dream
Ah 僕の目の前にいたのは
Ah, the person before my eyes was
願うの誰でもない君
You see? No one else but you

頬を打つ風がリアル さを伝えてる
The wind strokes my cheeks and makes me feel real
これは幻なんかじゃないんだって そっと囁く
Whispering softly that this is not an illusion at all

愛してると言われた数だけ
If only I had deserved your love
愛される僕でいられたなら
As many as the times you said you loved me
愛してると言った数だけ
If only I had loved you
愛していたなら
As many as the times I said I loved you

届かない声だと諦めた
I gave up, thinking that I couldn't reach your voice
敵わない夢だと諦めた
I gave up, thinking that this dream wouldn't come true
ねえ僕の目の前にいたのは
You see? Though the person before my eyes was
本当の君だったのに

The real you

Silent Whisper (1)

そう…悲しみが これ以上聞こえぬように

そっと耳を塞ぐように

壊れてしまわないように

So... that you can't hear anymore sadness

So that you can softly turn a deaf ear to it

So that it won't break you

-UNTITLED by the GazettE-

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I'm afraid of that pain 

from holding back my tears...

So I try to stay away from it...

Yes I’m running away from that pain...

I closed my eyes, 

my ears, 

and my heart

tightly; so they won’t suffering 

by lies...

But more I try to run

more lies embrace me, 

more lies slip from my lips...

A Story

Not every love stories have a happy ending...

And not all of sad pieces must ending in sorrow...

When our story is being unclasped by God,

we know we have no right to beg

for more or less...

We have to keep walking through it

with faith on God’s wise decision...

God’s absolute scenario...

 I met you,

that must be one of God’s plans for me...

I love you,

that must be destiny that God’s arrange for me,

or maybe us...

The distance,

that must be the God’s way

to considering my attempt

to reach your trails of life...

This almost impossible love

scratching my skin slowly,

until pain changed by numb,

until my day and night crumbled into a nothingness...

But never change my feeling for you...

My love will forever there

for you

as my prayers fly into the air...

Something You won't Ever Understand

I know I’ll never be a good girl...

I realize how much I hurt people around me...

I understand it yet I refuse to change myself...

I’m pathetic?

You’re probably right...

Every single pain that I received

made me a horrible person

and you won’t understand what is like...

I’m not the only one who feels this kind of feeling?

No, I’m not

and I’m aware of that...

This insecure feeling

is not only mine...